Tuesday, March 29, 2011

♥ 不是普通朋友,也不是情人

我有位摯愛 她不是普通朋友 但也不是男女朋友 她是很特別的一個女生。在我14歲那年 我們認識 并成為了好朋友。從那天開始友情不斷在增進、去哪裡有辦法就一起去、做什麽有機會就一起做。我們友達以上 戀人未滿。但沒有曖昧的痛苦。若我是同性戀,我會和你相守到最後。:) 但既然我們是straight 所以我們的友情 會很堅固很要好。


還記得我們一起和對方去教會?我們接受主 並且鼓勵對方 互相禱告。但什麽事發生 還會信息對方 叫對方幫忙禱告?


還記得我們一起去教會的Summer Camp?那算是我們第一次出去遊玩+過夜。坐巴士要一起坐,雖然不被安排在同一個房間,但我們一離開房間就和對方在一起。


還記得我們一起進新加坡 MRT沒位子 我們也願意粘在一起 像對小情侶似的 一起笑 一起哭 一起鬧。


還記得一起為學校忙得手忙腳亂,就爲了一個派對 我們去買了服裝。


還記得我們一起去遊神?那是我們第一次去走。雖然沒走到最後,但我們一起準備帶著那心情去看 :)


還記得你總是那麼偉大,當我需要你時 你會陪著我。甚至是去CS呆整天陪我等我男朋友表演,你也願意。



喜怒哀樂都有你的存在,都有你的陪伴。




和你經歷過一起風風雨雨,我的低潮你陪著我,快樂我們一起歡笑。我還記得 剛認識你時 我是個很不會笑的人,我很不愛接觸人群,情緒很容易被別人牽動,但因為你的一句 “你不開心也沒用 倒不如開心,我比較喜歡你開心的時候” 從那時 我打起精神來,簡單的一句話 改變了我很多。我變開朗了,你鼓勵著我。我們一起長大、一起成熟。

現在我們18歲了,4年就這樣過去了,我們也變了。漸漸得我在17歲那年轉校,因為彼此的環境不同,我們經歷了冷戰。面對對方 但之間卻有誤會。但最後我們還是坦白了,恢復了我們曾經的好。不久,18歲這年 你轉來我學校,但直到現在3月了 我畢業了。對不起 丟下你一個人在那。


我心很痛 得知你最近遇到不快樂。我很緊張 你爲了不讓我擔心 什麽都不說 全部都藏在心裡。我很難過,因為你不再是開朗的你。偶爾幫助不到你,我會遺憾 我會不知所措。


我想讓你知道 就算我們環境不一樣,遇見的人不同,面臨的是困難,但我對你的那份心 是不會變的。你在我心中永遠是好姐妹 好朋友。14歲到18歲,我們也認了好多朋友,但是都不能和你相比。她們來來去去,在生命中留下了腳印,但也離開了。這些都是心中的遺憾,但沒辦法,無法繼續進入她們世界,不是我們的錯,或許老天安排了不同的朋友在不同的人身上 在幫助那人 在鼓勵那人。


這幾年下來讓我領悟到什麽是好姐妹。當誤會來臨 解開了后 還能像曾經那樣的好 之間沒有尷尬。當對方有了男朋友 為對方感到開心,似乎是自己有了愛情般的開心。因為你的心情 和 我的心情連在一起。雖然我們不能像情侶那樣 能結婚。但我們能和情侶那樣 恩愛甜蜜。


我不後悔認識你,而且還有保握能和你友情直到最後。貝,我很愛你。當你遇到破折時 記得還有我。Don't shut me out from your problems. Do you know, the saddest is not you letting me know your problems, the saddest is you shutting me out from your world.


和你分享不快樂 不會是煩惱。是一種榮幸,因為不是每個人都能和你分享。
就算因為沒有情人而快樂少了一半,那讓我這個姐妹來填補那份空 直到一位值得你去付出的人出現 跟我接手 來鋪滿那些多年來的寂寞。












Thursday, March 24, 2011

Insomnia

It's 12:28am.
I'm awake, eyes wide open.
Accepting the fact that I have to attend school next morning, 8:30am.
From now on, I have 8 hours 2 minutes to sleep. And time is tik toking away.


Starting to realize that this is INSOMNIA.
This is not the first time these days, not sleeping good for the past few days.
I used to sleep till 10am during non-schooling days.
I used to lay in bed, lazing till noon.
I used to not hear phone calls when I'm sleeping.
Used to, used to, used to, used to = past, past, past, past.


After all these blabbering...
Still, I'm not friggin' asleep!!! Shit.
And not sleeping leads to bad skin. Arhhhhhhh!
Put a gun on my forehead and force me to sleep can?



I know why I'm having INSOMNIA.
Maybe because I'm growing old and less hours of sleep satisfies me?
Maybe because I'm not tired during the day?
Maybe because I'm too active during the day?
Maybe because my time is upside down now?
Maybe because there's too many stuffs in my mind? stress,burdens,etc...?



I used to be able to fall asleep in a few minutes. By lullaby too. But not now.
NOT ANYMORE :-(


Monday, March 21, 2011

♥ 21032011

Really out of pictures to put. Randomly took some fugly photos to make my post not so empty. -.- Heading out later. Gonna go school to finish up my 3 more books. See, I'm not exactly a graduate YET. Yikes, but already in holiday mode :( Have to switch it off.

Just a post to remind me what will my later posts be about.
1) My skincare routine
2) My normal base makeup

What you guys want me to blog about? Really out of my mind. My life is very boring -.- Yes... Very...

Soo, wait for my updates later on ;)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

♥ Random...

Got millions of random thoughts in my mind. Reluctant, restless, not knowing what to do at this time of life, at this pace where I have to find something useful to do. Something that will not distract me from the real motive I have in mind.

Hmm... Many things I haven't accomplished. Many blog posts I cannot wait to post.

Ohhgosh... I will finish all my post and duties :( Need time. Need new self-shots XD

Monday, March 14, 2011

♥ 友

What are friends?
Someone you use to accomplish task? Someone who is just to company you when you're bored? Someone you treat it with your heart?
What are F-R-I-E-N-D-S?

有人說 真心的一個就够了。
有人說 就算孤單沒朋友也無所謂 至少你正直。

我贊同。我不需要去尋找陪伴 去故意拍馬屁 去得到一個人的喜歡。就算得回來也不見得是真心真意的。去拍馬屁最後換回來的還不是被利用。
我不需要虛情假意的人!!! :) 我知道誰是真心。我承認我人緣不好,但至少我有愛我的家人。

真心的朋友 我愛你們。:)

Sunday, March 13, 2011

♥ God bless


God Bless Japan. Pray for Japan.
Each second refreshing Facebook, a new update on Japan's Tsunami appear on the screen. My heart breaks looking at those news. Newspapers, internet, radio, tv, every media I can find, those news are on it. Not only Japan, I heard that America got it too. Not much damage but lives are lost.


There's no one to blame for all these natural phenomenon and changes happening on earth. Don't blame God for not giving you more time. Blame yourselves to what you have done to the earth.
Some says 19th March 2011 is a day that the moon is nearest to the earth. I asked my Mom, she says this change is a sign of bad luck. It was passed down centuries saying that once the moon gets nearer to the earth, it is no more prosperous.
Some says 21st December 2012 is the end of the world. Posts on facebooks are stating that the Americans agreed to this date. Then videos of China investigators are then stating that this date is not proven. Cause it may not lead us to the end of the world, but instead it is a turn. A change to all mankinds. Still, not end of the world.

Till now, rumors is spreading. Now they're saying that the actual date is 21th May 2011. Hell. If the end of the world can be predicted, then it is not called the end of the world then. Hell again, if it is true then I only have 68days from now to treasure my life and do all that I haven't done. :(

Pressure is rising among everyone whose future is bright and shinning. Depression is unto those newborns that have not even have time enjoying life is now facing the end of the world?!?


Poor those Japan folks. Running away from the breaking of floors and big waves rushing towards them. Pity those tourist who just wanna have a holiday in Japan. Save those homeless people, those who lost their loved ones. Bless you guys. Bucker up! We still have a long way to go.


The idea of drowning in water is a nightmare for me. Was discussing with Babyboy yesterday about how we gonna die -.- I wanna die pretty,can? Ok.. Slap me for being so idiotic saying wanna die pretty at this bad timing. Soweeeeee guys :( Just need a few jokes to cheer myself up. Been feeling depressed for these few days regarding end of the world starting from the Japan tsunami. I know I shouldn't feel that way. I know I have to pray endlessly, for the world, for my loved ones...


The fact that earth is sick has been going on for quite some time. Since the global warming a few years ago, then blablabla... then 2012 show coming up. Then blablabla again. Then till now when disasters start to show up.

I wonder how long I can survive all these pressure?



God bless the world. God bless Japan. God bless everyone. Amen.

Friday, March 11, 2011

♥ Years pass by


Every picture reminds me of that moment. I guess that's the reason I still keep 2007's picture. A single picture tells a thousands words. I remember every single action during that moment, no matter if it is taken in 07 08 09 or 10.

The 15th year of my life has been quite interesting. Starting to know what is deep down people's mind. Got hurt, lied by the ones that I love, backstabbed by those nearest to me, got up and move on.

The 16th year was a reckless year. Being very lazy and not achieving anything. On my mind I was a growing teenager, a wannabe adult. Trying very hard to be mature but got kicked out from the mature world. Fall in and fall out of relationships don't exist. Life is spent mostly indoors. I lost my freedom this year being grounded by someone who is not worth it but I thought he was worth the whole world that moment.

Then later on a big transition happens. Being a 17 official teenager I began to learn many new things. Transferred to a new environment, learning to fit in a different place, meet new faces, knowing new friends. As a Form5 student in government school, I'm still stuck at Grade9/10 at Homeschooling Program. To be frankly I'm very glad not landing in government schools.

And now. I'm 18.


I'm facing new challenges and gonna enter a surrounding that I need to fit in for my entire life. I am gonna handle everything on my own. No more immature decisions and thoughts. No more baby cryings.
I know it may be hard at first, but I can do it.
I'm not afraid of the future. Even though it might be tough, even though I will be alone facing everything, but I know with a Promised in my heart everything is possible and everything will be taken care.




Sometimes challenges are to test our will power, if we can't handle it, try putting the burden down and rest for a moment. We live to be happy :))

Monday, March 7, 2011

♥ Jay Chou


Friday 4th March 2011
My first concert experience :) Jay Chou's World Tour Concert. Now I realize he can be quite attractive at times. Hiakk :D He's quite cute too. A lil humor, a lil cool plus a lil arrogant -.-
Ooppps, not in the wrong way. He's got the talent, he gets to show off a bit kay.



Went with sister to the concert. Rushed to KL on Friday just to reach there in time for the concert. Also to dodge the heavy traffic in KL :(

Reach Bukit Jalil Stadium at around 7pm. Crowded with lots of people and stalls selling food, and souvenirs all writing Jay Chou. I kinda like the theme for his concert. =P all in pink glowsticks and cute ribbon hairbands which light up pink light :) cute!!! but the hairband cost RM15. Very not worth it.



Entered the stadium. Hella big. First time entering a concert. Look at the effects of the glowsticks. :) Pretty right?? Everybody screaming when the light dimmed. -.- are they seeing something else?

Finally JayChou appeared :) Told cha he's kinda cute.



Aww he's playing guitar in a different style. He looks attractive when he's serious?
Throughout the concert everything is in 4D effects. The background, the screen, even his backdrops. Nice :) This concert cost him a boom I guess. But I guess from the tickets he get to earn it back. Range from RM200++ to RM700++?? approximately -.-
Plus he have to bring along his dancers, his band, his guests, his props, his workers, his helper, his blablabla -.- I wonder if he got his private jet??


Zoom Zoom Zoom. Thousands of people watching him. And from afar he looks so small :( Able to zoom this picture clear :) He is slim and tall XD
His songs are nicer live. Better than CD :)

Wanna see him again? Can post him to Malaysia and make him stay forever here?

I recalled his previous album XD When he first stepped into entertainment circle. He looks damn different from now.
就如佛要金装 人要衣装
有钱 有打扮 气质也不一样了 :) 他真人比较帅