Every picture reminds me of that moment. I guess that's the reason I still keep 2007's picture. A single picture tells a thousands words. I remember every single action during that moment, no matter if it is taken in 07 08 09 or 10.
The 15th year of my life has been quite interesting. Starting to know what is deep down people's mind. Got hurt, lied by the ones that I love, backstabbed by those nearest to me, got up and move on.
The 16th year was a reckless year. Being very lazy and not achieving anything. On my mind I was a growing teenager, a wannabe adult. Trying very hard to be mature but got kicked out from the mature world. Fall in and fall out of relationships don't exist. Life is spent mostly indoors. I lost my freedom this year being grounded by someone who is not worth it but I thought he was worth the whole world that moment.
Then later on a big transition happens. Being a 17 official teenager I began to learn many new things. Transferred to a new environment, learning to fit in a different place, meet new faces, knowing new friends. As a Form5 student in government school, I'm still stuck at Grade9/10 at Homeschooling Program. To be frankly I'm very glad not landing in government schools.
And now. I'm 18.
I'm facing new challenges and gonna enter a surrounding that I need to fit in for my entire life. I am gonna handle everything on my own. No more immature decisions and thoughts. No more baby cryings.
I know it may be hard at first, but I can do it.
I'm not afraid of the future. Even though it might be tough, even though I will be alone facing everything, but I know with a Promised in my heart everything is possible and everything will be taken care.
Sometimes challenges are to test our will power, if we can't handle it, try putting the burden down and rest for a moment. We live to be happy :))
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